"I know that." She lets out a soft, self-hating laugh. "I'm just as bad. I've offered that bitch a quest as well, in return for my brother."
She slides to the floor and Trinket comes over to check on her. She takes the easy comfort of her bear. This is uncomplicated, real, safe. Trinket will always love her, protect her, see her for who she is and still want her love.
"I'm tired of us dying, Percy. I want to stop attending rituals to bring back those I love." She's done so for Percy, Vax, Pike, Grog and Scanlan. Keyleth and Taryon are the only ones she's never had to attend a ritual for, the only ones she's never had to rip her heart out momentarily in the hopes the Gods would be merciful enough to return them. She knows that she's had her own, that Percy, Zahra and Vax are the ones to bring her back, but she doesn't care.
"I thought I'd earned that finally, the chance to live, but yet here I am." She looks around Trinket so that he can see her again and there are definitely treacherous tears that have left her eyes against her will. "You understand if what? If I don't want you? Love you? Have you listened to anything I've fucking said? Did you not hear me when we faced Saundor? My heart has always belonged to you, but I don't want you to be with me because you feel obligated."
She sniffs and turns her head back into Trinket's fur. "I need you to say it out loud, you fucking idiot."
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She slides to the floor and Trinket comes over to check on her. She takes the easy comfort of her bear. This is uncomplicated, real, safe. Trinket will always love her, protect her, see her for who she is and still want her love.
"I'm tired of us dying, Percy. I want to stop attending rituals to bring back those I love." She's done so for Percy, Vax, Pike, Grog and Scanlan. Keyleth and Taryon are the only ones she's never had to attend a ritual for, the only ones she's never had to rip her heart out momentarily in the hopes the Gods would be merciful enough to return them. She knows that she's had her own, that Percy, Zahra and Vax are the ones to bring her back, but she doesn't care.
"I thought I'd earned that finally, the chance to live, but yet here I am." She looks around Trinket so that he can see her again and there are definitely treacherous tears that have left her eyes against her will. "You understand if what? If I don't want you? Love you? Have you listened to anything I've fucking said? Did you not hear me when we faced Saundor? My heart has always belonged to you, but I don't want you to be with me because you feel obligated."
She sniffs and turns her head back into Trinket's fur. "I need you to say it out loud, you fucking idiot."